friends whose musical judgment i respect have recently been making mention of the avett brothers. the band name rattles off their tongues like i have a clue who they're talking about. i'm too ashamed to correct their assumption. to some, i am a musical reference. they come to me for recommendations of new artists to look out for. but these avett brothers that everyone talks about - well i've never heard of them.
i blame this partially on the fact that i haven't had cable for over a year and partially on the exhaustion i have felt in the past year as work has grown tougher and grad school has come to a close. my windows to the outside world have been hazy at best.
tonight things somewhat came to a head. i baked a carrot cake to celebrate laura and sandy tomorrow in the office, but the cake layers broke as they came loose from the pan. i started laundry, but didn't even make a dent. katy noticed water puddled on my kitchen floor and realized that it was leaking through the ceiling from the toilet upstairs. pete thought it would be a good idea to leave a pee trail all over the landing of the stairs. i still haven't begun rewriting my thesis which is due monday and i can't even think about taking my new testament final exam online until i have the graduate film finished for baccalaureate on friday.
on this same day, may 6th 2008, i wrote:
this will be known as the season of uncertainty for here on out. here i am again. potentially jobless...not knowing if i even want to stay in nc. wondering if it's time to head back to ohio for a while, or if it's time to go boldly to nashville or denver or savannah. question after question all over again...
funny how two years later i find myself in such a different place, and yet still so uncertain.
sure, i'm finishing up my masters degree. this should be a joyous occasion, right? but all i can think is, "okay, what's next?" it's clear that a chapter of my life is closing. but, like any good season finale cliffhanger, I haven't a clue where the opening paragraph of the next chapter will take me.
what does this have to do with the avett brothers? well, not much. but as everything was falling apart tonight i heard the lyrics of this new band with whom i am quickly and completely falling in love:
"we live uncertainty
and disappointments have to be
and everyday we might be facing more
and yes we live in desperate times
but fading words and shaking rhymes
there’s only one thing here worth hoping for
with lucifer beneath you and God above
if either one of them asks you what your living of
say "love"
Somewhere there is a lesson in a "broken" carrot cake being just as fabulous as a whole one. . .it was the best one I'd ever tasted! Thank you for making my birthday extra special!
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