one of the purposes of the list was to spark my creativity once again. there was a time in my life when painting and sketching and sculpting and crafting were the primary medium through which i expressed the inner thoughts of this introvert. eventually, i found writing. and while writing takes less tools, less space and less preparation or forethought, there's something about the visual arts that still pulls at me.
"the purpose of art is washing the dust of daily life off our souls." ~ pablo picasso
from the list...
3) paint something and hang it in my home
14) finish the afghan i began knitting in 2005
19) complete my map art project
how did i do? well, i've committed to going to a painting class with three of my friends and we've even already purchased the tickets. the afghan is progressing. i anticipate finishing it by christmas. pencils were purchased and i started sketching again. until pete tried to eat the pencils... and the map project? complete!
so, did i check everything off of the list? no. but i have reclaimed my creativity. and i've reclaimed the vulnerability that comes with being a creator.
part of my struggle with the visual arts is that when i put that paint brush to canvas, well, there's a chance that what i try to create won't turn out the way i envision it. there's a chance when i put that pencil to paper that i'll mess up and not be able to erase the imperfection so completely that others won't see it. there's a chance that it won't be perfect. there's a chance that people might realize that i'm not perfect.
"creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. art is knowing which ones to keep." ~ scott adams
there's a deep vulnerability that comes with creating something and inviting others to see and potentially scrutinize your creation, because the mistakes i'm ready to live with or even put on display may not be the mistakes that others can forgive.
i wonder if that's how the Creator sees me.
maybe i'm a mistake worth keeping.
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